On Faith & Overcoming (and Good vs. Evil)

This post focuses mostly on the issues of truth vs. falsehoods, but also and especially on good vs. evil, and how to figure out the truth in general and between the two polarities in particular.

Let's also talk about some of my own doubts, struggles and fears. Am I just being mislead, and is this whole New Age movement in relation to Ascension all nonsense?

The former certainly may have happened quite frequently. The latter, if you doubt it, perhaps even more reason for you to keep reading...

It's not meant to go into too much detail here as for Ascension-related topics, since there's just SO much information, starting with all the major religions having some kind of prophecies as for major changes and end of a cycle or cycles (which doesn't have to mean the end of the World - just the end of the World as we know it).

I recently stumbled upon an author by the name of Wynn Free, who made a book about the many signs linking David Wilcock with Edgar Cayce, "The Sleeping Prophet". As in likely being his reincarnation. So, I'll just interject some of what he wrote in another book the former published titled "The Creator God Book":

"I see myself as an emissary or in-between agent for intelligent positive consciousness in other dimensions and the Earth plane. I have proven to myself and a small group of people who have been paying close attention for the past few years that this is real, positive, and something that certain people will find extremely important. These intelligences have explained that they operate in large teams or groups and have made ongoing helpful contributions to the evolution of humankind."

"The response of people who attended my lectures. Whenever I gave public talks, there was an energy in the room, which many of those present could sense or see. This energy was not me. When I asked questions about it in the channelings, they said they were giving me support by "beaming" into the room. Here's an example of someone's experience who attended one of my workshops:

"I can honestly say I have never in my life felt that kind of energy, love, compassion, and wisdom, flowing so freely in one place before. It was beyond my wildest expectations. It has changed my life forever........ If I would have read your material I would have thought, cool, that's pretty neat. However after experiencing and feeling the energy and the love, WOW!!! I have felt so different since that night. It is not going away either..... ."

What it really was that had motivated me to write this here: This constant bugging me with negative narratives. And I'm not sure why I myself have not yet perceived such strong energies, as described above. Though in some sense yes, as in my Lightbody, seemingly, to have once had its vibrations raised immensely, and though I've often had very clear signs that I was not alone. Energies yes, but not in a way that they would take in an entire room. Or is it just because I'm usually alone, and these energies only can be felt either in larger spaces, or simply when indeed there is the intention for that (as in projecting such energies into the room)?

I am quite sure that there may have been dark entities on occasion at some point as well, especially last year, but I feel just as certain, or at least very much hope I'm right, that positive beings have been around a lot more often (who just weren't allowed to interfere), or even pretty much all the time. At times holding my hand (if I would reach it out in distress), doing something on my energy body, like giving me acupuncture sessions (for free) - acupuncture really works on the meridians anyway, which are in the non-physical. As for frequencies I could hear, it's that there have been high-frequency/high-pitch sounds every now and then, and on at least three occasions or so I perceived something - darker perhaps - during the night, a very low and discordant frequency, which could have been some negative entity.

But what could be possible reasons for keeping me in uncertainty? More speculation below. And I can only keep repeating myself by saying that most likely at some point, we are going to have clear answers.

Wynn Free has more interesting things to say and questions one could ask:

"I suggest that you need to evaluate me. Am I trustworthy? What's my intent in writing this book? What is my intelligence? Am I delusional? Could I be being misled? Could I be connected with a dark force masquerading as a light force?

Then you have to evaluate the Elohim. If I am really communicating with what identifies itself as the Council of Elohim and they really are who they say they are, this may be the most important book on the planet. What if that intelligence who was identified as God in the Old Testament is now explaining how they function and how they interface with our realm in a way that's never been presented in the history of mankind? What if they are giving the correct explanation for the transformation, which is happening on our planet right now and why this period is so important with regard to the evolution of your own soul."

What if he, myself and hundreds or thousands of people on Earth right now really have been unto something here? If you have looked into the whole thing, also with other channelings and information to have been put forth that partly seems far beyond human comprehension (if you go to youtube, you'll find new channelings every single day), with dozens, or even hundreds of books related to Earth changes and supernatural phenomena and higher knowledge, with many people to have had and received signs & synchronicities, you might perhaps also come to think that it's probably not just some science fiction writers somewhere in a basement coming up with all this.

But to give you a bit of a broader picture, it seems to be so that many people (Lightworkers, Starseeds, Angelics/Elohim incarnated perhaps, or incarnated 'aspects' thereof or whatever) quite apparently have been attacked and manipulated in the last couple of years in particular; me included, starting with my (rude) awakening almost exactly 2 years ago. One guy on FB recently posted something that many have been "crucified" (as in, have been walking a rough path)...

I've made many longer posts on FB and since they're not necessarily related to the theme of the blog, I haven't put a lot of these here. But I'll just link to two of my most recent ones here which include some interesting findings.

There are basically many approaches to explain Oneness. Also, just look at many religions, those of India in particular (Hinduism, Buddhism) and all mystics speak of it. One theory would involve talking about the Universe as an "egg" that once came from God. So, this post mentions Thoth, Isis, Osiris and Horus and includes this symbolism (if it is just a kind-of-symbolism) of the "egg" and more.

And this one discusses Christ Consciousness/Krishna Consciousness vs. Jesus/Christ and also the Feminine vs. Masculine Principles. The premise is that basically everything seems to start with the Great Mother. There's even a film called "Aluna", mentioning her and the beginnings (aluna means "conscience"). But without the Masculine Energies, essentially, there would not be life as we know it.

I'm also referring to synchronicities in the post here, and just about 2 hours before looking up "Aluna" on youtube to fetch the link for the post here, which in that very moment showed exactly "20.000 views", I had listened to a self-recorded track reciting a Rumi poem, which says, "I used to have 20.000 different desires, the unseen king said once on Sinai...".
There have been literally hundreds such "coincidences" in the last two years.

Not too many of my posts on FB are public, but I believe the more interesting ones and hopefully more truthful ones are. - Perhaps I should have had the idea much earlier to use a blog in order to collect interesting posts. - But then, firstly there's tons of information out there already - however difficult it may oftentimes be to discern fact from fiction, and lies from truth - and secondly, I guess there will be (more) books and papers and announcements shared with the public in the future, in order for all of us to gradually gain deeper insights into the real truths of the nature of reality and the workings of the Universe, and all the things you always wanted to know (or preferred to ignore).

Anyhow, it's already much more than I wanted to write, but I think that's fine, or better actually.

So, to get back to what I really wanted to say, let's explore the possibilities of evil, or perhaps approaching cataclysms or negative changes (which I strongly doubt) instead of a Golden Age. But do look at any negative sentiments with a healthy skepticism. Firstly, I think it's indeed not what we're headed for, the negativity, and secondly, "you attract what you put your focus on", as they say? But perhaps if there's something bad that applies to the collective, then you could be as positive as you want, and still run into trouble along with others. So maybe we should consider to try to be wise and stay open-minded:

Passive, yet not remaining passive when moving into action could be required.
Active, yet not staying active when being calm would be more beneficial.

Passive: The Feminine Principle.
Active: The Masculine Principle.

I've referred to the many other people and myself as having been psychically attacked and manipulated. One thing that I've heard and read at times, also in context of the guy I mentioned above who had posted on FB, was that the big message in the end always was and has been Love. Also so in my case. In situations of doubt, I always had to remind myself to... listen to my heart, i.e. focus on the heart-space when things turned rough. To move back into love. Which was at times difficult, especially when I was still in chaotic situations and not centered or grounded, nor having been surrounded by healthy and positive reminders. Until I had re-established certain routines, like reading things with uplifting and confirming messages as to all the positive things there are. Or later to have been reminded that perhaps we may have just set up (many of) these challenges ourselves. Which, depending of one's frame of mind at the time, also doesn't always have to be uplifting per se either. And that from a higher perspective these are merely seen as "experiences".

And on a different note, in Tarot, doesn't the Fool (the Zero) make his journey to The World (the Twenty-one) in the end, rather than from Fool to Devil or something? Because the latter has been a narrative that has been presented to me at times. So, when he has overcome the Devil, there are the Star, the Moon, the Sun, Judgement and the World in the Tarot. There's also the theory that the mysterious Tarot of the Bohemians is actually the "lost" Book of Thoth. 

Either way, does it go back to just trusting ourselves, our own hearts as for whether our own intentions are truly positive or not?

Is that what it's all about? Having faith and overcoming?
Faith might or should be a lot stronger for people who have believed in God all their lives, but for people like me, who were atheists before their awakening, or still are, things might be more tumultuous at times. The reason being that the spiritual "muscles" have not really been built up in this lifetime. No matter the fact of one's possible past and future role(s).

I also think that a main reason for some of us going through all these things could be/have been related to the dark forces and for us to have offered some kind of deal (perhaps?), so that the broader public wouldn't have to go through too much turmoil themselves too?

Anyway, here a song with the theme of Overcoming:

But to still try and briefly present two or some of the possibilities explaining these psychic attacks and difficult-to-swallow narratives (do feel free to skip any such negative input though). But for that I'll first have to explain some things...

Let's consider the 'false ego', and the 'false light' being the intellect etc. This doesn't mean per se that basing knowledge on the analytical mind, so, on the intellect, necessarily has to be bad, but I'm just trying to point to the (potentially) automatic thought system we humans possess, which can and does easily get us into trouble. 'False ego' because, according to some teachings, the higher self actually would be the real ego, the 'real thinker' behind your thoughts and the false ego is just automatic and unconscious. We need to try and focus on those thoughts that don't keep us in auto-mode or in fear, being apathetic and selfish/self-centered and self-serving. Which is how we usually define the term ego. Your higher self being none of this, only wanting the best for you and everyone around you, being interested in having and achieving harmony and love for all. However, we also seem to have our plans for every life set up, so that's where the false ego would or could (and could have) come in, to partly have guided and misguided us. At times or often - or always - with a purpose, as some theories would suggest.

I myself would not want to put myself on one side or another, concerning judging right or wrong answers to such questions, and rather prefer to let everyone choose whatever answer they might find most palatable at the time.

Then there's also our spiritual guides though, to perhaps have similar tasks (but on the positive side) and try to point us again towards a better path, if one has fallen off, to put it like this. So, if you've come to the understanding that the real you is not your body... then read on. Otherwise do feel free to do some more searching first.

Since your body is not the real you, but ultimately just one lens from which the Creator, God, the Beloved, or whatever term you wanna use, experiences itself, there indeed seems to be the possibility of this false ego to be unconscious and free of emotions, as Eckhart Tolle explains it. However, I think that the negative entities may have quite likely been able to tap into it (since everything is consciousness), and manipulate or target people basically through this false ego. Take into consideration that the term mind-control isn't just frequencies in the TV, in music or in the way or manner in which messages are transported through words etc. As in certain words, or their spellings - spells - could or can alter people's consciousness and awareness. In the English language, there seem to be lots such negatively oriented trigger-words. But as for the 'false ego', originally it seems to have been designed for a purpose. Not evil, it just helps you to be human in the first place. Because in the Earth realm we are very different from our true nature, which would have to be pure love/light. However, as Dolores Cannon has said, humans have very distinct emotions etc., which does make Earth life so interesting.

If you've looked a bit into Dolores Cannon's work, or at similar sources, you might have heard that before incarnating we seem to be able to choose our experiences in the next life. Perhaps even through a computer screen. And probably usually or always (I'm not sure), are able to make adjustments ourselves, wishes etc. Like I said, we're not this body, and actually, in order to be spiritual beings, it doesn't mean that everything in the spirit realm necessarily has to happen magically just by thought only. So, computers seem to exist in the higher realms, backed by research obtained from Qhht sessions and also written about by people like Drunvalo Melchizedek. You still have your individuality or own personality, your soul with its own unique story. Also do consider research in fields such as Quantum Science and the Electrical Universe.

As for another theory to perhaps help explain evil, which speaks of non-physical suns that include an intellectual sun and a soular sun (see "The Secret Teachings of All Ages"). The former would represent the 'false light' (the Lucifer energies) and the latter its redemption, the Christ or Christened light (also see some very compelling information in Yogananda's "Second Coming of Christ" on the topic). But then, on other planets, there could again be different theories or realities. Some Sources have stated that Lucifer (or Set, as he is called in the Egyptian mysteries) was already returned "to the light" in recent years; as in -forcibly- having become positively oriented again. Which might be a necessity for the Golden Age. The Kali Yuga, the dark ages, seem to have ended or are about to come to an end (2025 is one year I recently came across), so those dark energies could have been part of the things to have been allowed as part of "the big experiment", and as catalysts in order to foster the evolution of Souls (from darkness - to overcoming = soul growth - to love/light). And yet, my personal struggles as for these last two years somehow have persisted up until now (not constantly of course). Which means in a bit more detail that in the last about half a year now I've had voices in my head, starting out as positively-oriented voices (likely as part of a false narrative at the time though), which then changed to very negative. And then only after horrible experiences over the course of days, there was a break of a few weeks, and only then I started to hear my higher self and perhaps at times or frequently also higher or different "levels" of attainment than "just" the higher self. But then again, this devil-type voice also has returned at times as well (but more in the background, compared with the experiences from last year), which even has been able to mimic any voice, including that of my higher self (confusing, right?). Or in that case it likely merely has been this "false ego". Now as for the reasons, again I do not know anything much for sure. But it could also point to the possibility that there are still some dark forces on the loose. Or merely the narrative of such? Are we perhaps meant to individually and collectively shift these dark energies into the background, so to speak, and stories like mine are meant as a catalyst or trigger to help awaken others; or is there perhaps the Solar Flash that would do the job and remove all remaining low-vibrational interferences and forces? Or again, do we just have to all pick up proper yoga- and meditation practices that might help remedy the situation and remove any such control mechanisms?

Here also an interesting portion of a chapter from a book by U. S. Anderson called "Evil is an Illusion", read by Brian Scott: https://youtu.be/GmNuqj1T4Wk

How is the virus connected to all this? (I hope you are not so much asleep that you actually believe in the "dangers" of the virus the way they are portrayed by the media and governments.) See another brief post referring to the virus, linking to a doctor (John Bergman) in the comments who has actually done some thinking; and research for that matter. And there have been more doing so, most of which who apparently have been largely ignored...

And this I just found among my emails from Joe Martino/"Collective Evolution" as I was getting close to finishing up this post:

"Have you noticed more countries around the world are demonstrating their non compliance with lockdown measures? This is only going to increase I imagine. The primary drivers of this seem to be that people don't feel the full story is being told or that lockdowns are necessary. 

The mainstream media is mostly blacking out these stories as the very questioning of this narrative holds deep power."

In one of my own songs, titled "The Crying Earth | Open Eyes", I speak of the "crown" referring to "royalty" and "corona" referring to the "crown". But actually later I also heard that, firstly, it can also mean "victory" and more importantly, when referring to the Crown Chakra, can stand for enlightenment. And Stewart Pearce writes in his book "Angels of Atlantis":

"The great Atla Priest-Scientist of the communion of the leaders was OSIRIS (here another track I recorded: Hymn to Osiris), the mighty leader of universal power, creativity, and the fertile force of life. Osiris brought the force of the CROWN CHAKRA to special dedication in the Temple worship, for the energy center of the crown was seen as a chamber of renewal in the continuing cycle of life, and in the resonating conviction of the soul. [...] This Chakra allows light from the Source to literally pour into the physical geometry of our being, bringing a connection to the super-conscious mind, the higher self, cosmic consciousness and, ultimately, God."

Anyhow, if it was up to me, then indeed many inconvenient truths are better to arrive slowly. Allow every single person to take their time to wrap their heads around the fact -or at the very least now, the high likelihood- that reality is different from what most of us have thought it is. But some inconvenient truths, half-truths and untruths may have actually been pushed by the dark agenda prematurely in these past few years, with them having known about the shift for ages, and with many things to have twisted around and distorted in order to cause much confusion.

Either way, I think that this is exactly what spirituality is here for. The truth can hurt. But spirituality, and music and song for that matter, allow you to shift your perspective towards a healthier frame of mind. Avoidance does not always have to be negative at all. The same pool in your garden might not seem quite as inviting in winter as it is in spring and summer. And one truth may hurt more if it were to be slammed at you now, rather than if it were to be presented to you or us with love.

On another note, I've also followed frequent short channelings (presumably) from Jesus, which although yes, are very much positively oriented, but also often reminding how this world is different from how we've come to think about it, and reminding of us to not be too attached to the physical body. And my hope is that these are just general reminders and pointers as for our spiritual nature, rather than for them perhaps being there with the background of something negative coming. See how difficult things can be? When reality seems so "bendable" and when we perhaps really get to experience that which we attract, and should therefore simply focus on the best possible outcomes, rather than staying in apathy or even worse, to move into fear. Or perhaps indeed, move into action, which is what this virus could be really here for... the premise taking into consideration, that originally it was created as a harmful virus by the dark, but was lessened into a virus barely as harmful as a regular flu.

So, anyway, I do not know for sure what is going on with these negative narratives and attacks on some of us. And however, without wanting to be or getting too negative of course, I did want to use the opportunity of this one post at least to share many of these things that have been bugging me for so long now. Though negative as for some of the things mentioned, they could however still be helpful, if the right conclusions are being taken to heart.

So...

"Be drunk in love. Since love is everything that exists."

"Love is the whole thing. We are only the pieces." ~Rumi

Rumi was it also to have made this reference to life on Earth merely being a dream ("and only a dreamer considers it real") "and when we wake up, you wake up laughing". Nonetheless, the struggle feels real - and there is no excuse or any reason whatsoever to move away from love and become cocky due to the knowledge one may possess (again, that's the false ego). The opposite, let's get together and find a greater understanding about love being our true identity. Therefore, also wise up and think along the terms of forgiveness when it comes to dark entities and personages, rather than hate, no matter how tough it can be at times. Even their true identity is "the beloved", no matter how far removed they currently are. But that's not even the main reason, and too much about the workings of Karma - the workings of the Universe - when we talk about forgiveness. God won't be mad at you if you're unable to forgive evildoers, that's not the issue. Also be forgiving to yourself for any mistakes, including not having been forgiving. The greatest disservice you can do to other AND yourself is being unforgiving.

On truth - I wrote the following recently...

Theoretically the truth has got to be like a seed, or a tree that once came from a seed. If it has branches & leafy stuff, a trunk with strong roots, then it's gotta be a tree. If it only has a trunk, then it's perhaps just a pole. (Or, you're just hallucinating that tree..).

So, there are always "tendencies". And the more you learn, the more knowledge you should or will have and the wiser you should become, but the danger always is that the more you learn, at the same time you might have learned a lot of falsities too. So then you need a fair amount of thinking effort involved and again, more importantly, wisdom, and listening to your heart & gut, and/or asking for guidance, without allowing the false ego and analytical mind to do all the work.

Instead of all the reading and learning, you could as well consider to do it like the yogis and gurus though and start meditating non-stop for the next 20 years in order to have the answers naturally come to you. - Though nowadays this also seems to be happening much faster. - Finally, what good is all the learning and knowledge that might point you towards the truth - again, as in a mere tendencies - when then the ego (partly) takes over again, and now you've become a New Age hyppie-crite who only has brotherly love for people with enough money to pay for your newly acquired services involving healing abilities, or whom you appreciate just enough to offer a free hug or a chat.

I might repeat myself, but my concern really is about the future. Just to entertain the possibility of a hostile take-over of the planet and perhaps many of us to just be used for wrong purposes: firstly, if that were the case, couldn't they just simply take over without making everything SO complicated, with this utterly complex process to have been going on for years and even decades, and uh... thousands of years? Secondly, haven't we been negatively controlled for a very long time? Thirdly, again, the more you focus on fear, you know. So, keeping your focus on tons upon tons upon tons of positive narratives can't be so bad, can it? They're all there. But you might be better off asking someone who knows where to look.

I recently was reminded again of a prophecy from the 1970's concerning the times we're in, and this particular prophecy came from Palma de Mallorca, where I had spent several months last year (unbeknownst to any such synchronicities, including references to Jesus, and places called Betlem, Nazareth and Galilea, the latter of which was the place I had ended up at on my first day on the Island, in which I even had found a large flower of life sign on the pavement). It would be strange for all these things to be going on everywhere in the world, not just my own synchronicities & signs, when in the end there is going to be some negative outcome.

Really there just seems to be SUCH a massive amount of signs to show that positive changes might indeed be coming. And yet, doubts can creep in so easily and take over, especially if there's something in your mind that you can't seem to control (as of yet), that you can only try to or have to reject, so to come back to yourself through breath-work and meditation and so on. It almost would seem to border on insanity if you think about how certain you can be about something in one moment, and how doubtful you can become in the next.

Sometimes I feel I might just need as much faith myself as YOU might already have...